MAGGIE

2012-01-21T20:56:00.002+08:00

19th JAN 2012...

was practically one of the memorable dates since young.

Two birthday celebration within a day! :)

The first celebration was spent with my faculty friends, double J,

at Fosters steakhouse restaurant.

Food was AWESOME, particularly the vegetables.

(will definitely head back again(: )

I was so surprised when a waitress brought a cake towards our table!

The second celebration was spent with my hall publication committee members.

Before the meeting, a suspicious ambience was lingering in the meeting room.

But I don't know what was going to happen.
It was just.....strange.
The light was suddenly switched off after the meeting.

A few members were holding onto a birthday cake.

But I thought it was for another member,

because it was so early from my birth date!

Yeah, I was amazed seriously.

I was so happy happy happy even before I went to Fosters restaurant :)

Because I sat together with a few of my ex-tutorial group members during lectures.

I played wii again during break time.

It just felt awesome for the entire day.

:D

"THANK YOU Y'ALL!"

2012-01-08T19:37:00.004+08:00

2012 - a brand new year.

Time to settle down.

"Focus will determine everything."

2011-12-13T22:40:00.002+08:00

oh no...

RUNNING MAN is absolutely awesome and hilarious!
It's my essential vitamin which I can't live without :D

2011-11-29T16:30:00.002+08:00

It's been ages...

Exam has never been so stressful for me until I sit for uni papers.
I was practically tossing and turning on my bed during the second night.
Eyes blinking and trying very hard to sleep.
After 4 hours of effort, I decided to give up and got myself out of bed.
It was 5am.
sleepy and I can't sleep.
What a joke to me.
And yes, I woke up and STUDIED.
I feel very regretted for not studying hard enough
Because the paper came out to be pretty easy.
Scanning through the past year papers, I thought I won't even get the chance of scoring.
But it came out to be otherwise.
Who can I blame?
Then again, after getting an hour of nap, I couldn't sleep for the third night.
Woke up at 4.44am and continued to study.
Somehow, I was so used to the sleepless night.
But I feel regretted too.
I didn't push myself hard enough.
I could have done so much more, writing the equations.
I know I will slowly get to solve it because I saw that question before!
And it was a manageable paper.
The paper which i have sit for, didn't show the professor my capability.
I know I can do it, but I didn't show it.
Who can I blame?

This will be my last time...

2011-07-24T15:03:00.005+08:00

I have been away for quite awhile!!
HK trip, faculty camp...
I realised I have very dark circle around my eyes.
Mainly due to the late night sleep during the trip and camp.
But they were really fun!!
Particularly the faculty camp,
I'll always remember the day when i slept at 7.30am.
Super fun still!
Let the pictures tell the story (camp).
they don't go according to the date of events.
ps: more photos are on fb!

2011-05-26T19:08:00.009+08:00

Well, I'm pretty bored. So I decided to upload some really ancient photos to blogger. The photos don't go according to dates, so please pardon me on that. I'll be uploading more if I'm super bored again. haha!

1. My self-portrait photo (cant find any places to slot in, so i decided to upload to here) opps.

2. I really really really LOVE this photo! It looks cooling and we were having a lot of fun at Marina Barrage.

3. It was a group photo taken at vivo. It was Jess's birthday. so well, yeap.

4. I thought this photo was cute, so I decided to upload it. And the threes all loveeeeee this photo! Haha. I have no idea why. Maybe it was cute? hah.

5. Another photo taken in the same event.

6. Oh well, this was taken when we were about to leave dhoby. It was actually a class gathering event on that day :) ps: the "mirror" was dirty.

7. It was supposed to be the first photo I wanted to show. But the sequence is a little funny here. But nvm. It was the first time I took photo with two snakes! Gosh. Their skins were kind of rough. If you have any real snake leather bag, you'll know it. (although i don't promote you guys owning any endangered animal skins) I don't know why my family said I looked kind of scared in this photo. Perhaps it was my expression which gave them the impression? The fact is I was NOT afraid, maybe a little fake on the smile? haha! Okay, but this really impressed my family, like totally. :D

2011-05-26T16:49:00.002+08:00

You know, I accidentally read through one of my diary entries.
And i feel totally miserable after that.
Argh.
Feeling bad bad bad right now.
Yea, i guess i should get ride of the past, and move on with passions :)
HL's words really made me feel better.
Yeap, be happy for school days!!
Backpack, stationaries, water bottles, books...
Oh god.
I'm excited for it!
I want to be a passionate student! ;)

2011-05-25T14:07:00.004+08:00

Out of a sudden, I have nothing to do.
Student was having neckache (let's assumed she was telling the truth).
Thus, lesson was cancelled.
what the shit.

Task to be accomplished:
*Complete reading the book.
*Print out photos.
*Design an original photo album.
*Prepared for june tuition lessons (it's gonna be a rigorous month, with loads of paper, test and assessment question for my student)

You know, I'll be giving 3hours of tuition per lesson in June.
I believe my student and I will be able to pull through this tough period together.
haha.
At the end of the day, I really hope her math will pass and all the rest of the subjects will score pretty well ;)

2011-05-23T10:49:00.002+08:00

Time flies!
I didn't realise today's already 23rd May (that is close to the end of May).
Which indicates that many things are going to happen soon,
including the HK trip.
And I'm a few more steps closer to school days.
Strangely enough, I'm quite excited and looking forward to it.
But thinking of the medical check-up freaks me.
okay, bye.

2011-05-20T13:44:00.003+08:00

I have nothing to discuss currently because my life is dull.
Each day, i have something to do.
but they are meaningless/dull/dry, not something worths sharing here.
Ahh.
Suddenly I thought of something.
I went evening movie (Insidious) with C on wednesday!
Well, it was a preview so i supposed it'll screen officially around the end of may??
Hmm, i will give 3/5 popcorns to the movie.
Not extremely eerie/horror which i thought it would be.
Perhaps it was because we were sitting at the side.
But the sound effects were really amazing (plus a little funny scenes in between).
The ending turned out to be a shock for everyone.
You got to watch it before you know what i meant! :D
I'm not urging you guys to watch, but you really got to watch the whole film before you know how surprised the ending was.
dull, dull, dull.
Yea, time to pack up, write a packing list for travelling, complete reading my book, think and reply the emails.
I want a back pack for school! If I can't find it at Hk, I'll be buying it in S'pore.
I found a shop at Fas East which sells bags and wallets.
Hopefully it doesn't close down any time soon.
Haha.But the funniest thing is, I haven't accept any of the universities yet!
I guess I've got to choose it asap before it rejects me. blah.

2011-05-09T22:42:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!

SMU accepted me! hell yeah!
Suddenly I'm so proud of myself bcos I get in mainly due to my performance during interview :)
And that shows I'm still able to establish myself vocally.
Not the useless, timid Maggie whom I thought I would be.
This is a totally different feeling btw receiving ntu letter and smu letter.
Really.
And last but not least, Thank God.

2011-04-27T18:44:00.002+08:00

NOT THE SAME.

I was so hyperventilate ytd when I saw an email invitation to ntu tea reception.
I was so happy but I was a little skpetical.
Bcos I haven't receive the uni acceptance letter!
Who on Earth will send an invitation without sending the acceptance letter first/together?
But well, I got it at the end :)
I knew I was excited, relieved, happy, but these feelings just gone within minutes?
Idk why.
You know, things changed.
If I was my old self, I would be happy over the moon for days, smiling from cheek to cheek for hours.
But this time, right now, what remains inside me is only gratefulness.
Bcos I learnt lessons and lessons make me grow.
We shouldn't take everything for granted afterall.
Looking back, I found myself very childish and immature then.

2011-04-25T10:29:00.003+08:00

A SATURDAY'S SHOPPING SPREE

Saturday was finally an outing with sec sch clique ! :)
I like the kind of familiar feeling when I am with them.
But I was way too bored for the first half of the session.
God knows why.
I guess I was too bothered by Father's coming back.
Yea, my curfew began at that point of time.
Honestly speaking, Father is not so bad after all.
Compared to Grandmother.
Those who are close to me will know the reason. hah.
And yes, I guess I am kind of worried for my uni letter?
Idk, I am getting worried, anxious and a little depressed upon waiting for the letters lately.
The feelings just struck me out of a sudden.
Oh well, coming back to the outing part.
I bought another tee on Saturday!
totally loving it <3 :)
But I guess it was pretty expensive.
Luckily, I only bought one.
I am gonna wait for a while before I head out again to buy my cardigan.
yeah! V :)
I love dresses lately!! Bcos I don't need to ponder if my top matches my bottom or not.
It's very frustrating at times especially when I am in a rush.
HL promised me to buy a dress together!! :) Hopefully she keeps her promise.
haha!!
Anyway, I realised I cannot wear top or dress which has no cuttings.
They looked totally awful on me.

And that's it.

2011-04-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

A SUNDAY'S SHOPPING SPREE

I finally went out for shopping on Sunday. :)
1 skirt & 1 long top/dress.
But I realised all are navy blue.
And I am loving it!! <3
You know what, I've decided to work really hard now.
Regardless of anything, I am gonna put in effort.
And I am pretty pleased/satisfied with my life here, really.
I am happy with who I am and I want to be myself.

2011-04-15T19:28:00.002+08:00

TOUGH PERIOD

I have been pretty pretty busy these days.
Giving tuition used up 3/7 of my week.
3/4 of the remaining week is going out for serious matters.
The rest of the time is wisely spent for exercising cum family outing.
Yet I am currently deprived of shopping/dinner session with friends.
On one hand, I want to spend a little time resting.
On the other hand, I want to meet up with my friends.
OMG.
It's pretty much of a tough period for me lately.
What will happen next?

2011-04-01T23:32:00.000+08:00

THIS IS MIND CRACKING AND NERVE CRACKING...

2011-04-01T10:41:00.001+08:00

SOLVE THE MYSTERY & CRACK THE CASE.

2011-03-17T11:46:00.002+08:00

CINDERELLA'S STORY

When people asked me why I am so stressed, I couldn't exactly tell them the core reason.
Yes, about the uni applications, tuition, pressure from family and relatives, etc....
There are many small and big issues which are bothering me.
Perhaps I am also bothered by my own thoughts and feelings.
I am not even sure why I am reacting this way, not to speak sharing my thoughts with people.
Or maybe, i'm just too afraid?? I don't know.

You know, I really have this urge to get my butt out of my house for these two days.
Because daddy is coming back soon. And I believe I wouldn't have the time to go out, shop and chill again.
Why am I having such life?!
I felt that life is painful. I hate waiting, being restricted and can't seem to be going on with my life properly.

2011-03-08T11:53:00.003+08:00

HECTIC.

You know what, I'm feeling extraordinarily stressed for the past few weeks. There were helping hands and listening ears. But I can't seem to pour my thoughts out, entirely. There were things I guess there was no point mentioning it because I believe everyone has their own little secrets. I mean not really secrets, but it would be quite rude saying them out. So well, I don't know.
I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I want...
I want to hide in a corner and talk to myself. Is that depression? Well, I guess so.
I really hope nothing has happened before.

"Because God has chosen this route for you."

2011-02-01T22:09:00.002+08:00

How long will it last?

I was so fatigue today. My student was making a fuss over tuition this afternoon! She has forgotten she has a session with me. What the shit. And she complainted and screamed on top of her voice at her mother. So what was it? I felt lost completely, not knowing how to react. Should I be angry, relax or...? I mean I didn't have the mood to give tuition today as well. Like hello, who will? Everyone wants to enjoy CNY. But being a responsible tutor, I went to her house and tried my best to teach her. If she doesn't appreciate my effort, why do I still cling onto the belief that when I give in my best, my student will work hard too? For the first time, I seriously know how teachers feel when they encountered trouble kid.
I'm not sure if this is just a moment of thought, I really don't want to care about all these bullshits anymore. If they want to fire me, go ahead, I've no regret. I seriously don't care anymore.

2011-01-21T22:20:00.003+08:00

LOVING IT!

Today was an awesome day:) K,C and I went to Science Center. After much discount, I went there without paying a single cent. hahah. Everything was so interesting. We were practically walking around the center for hours! Pressing buttons and playing silly games. That was how we spent our day.
But I need to emphasize, C.S.I - the experience was super awesome, especially the first case. Because we know nuts about the game in the first place! We were like some innocent kids figuring out how to fool a teacher. I totally lovvvveee it! The crime scenes were my favourite part. You simply need to look around for clues and make wild guesses! Do make a visit there if you're one of those who likes to solve mysteries and crack cases :)
I Believe you'll love it. But I'm sure you can't enough of it. :P

PS: ALL PHOTOS ARE UPLOADED ON FB :)

2011-01-15T10:14:00.002+08:00

First, I had headache times and again.
Next, I was down with flu.
Afterwhich, red and sore eye caught me red-handed.
Followed by sore throat, a very serious one.
And coupled with fever.
while sore throat is still going on, coughing makes me breathless and weak.
As if these are not enough to kill me, my back is hurting crazily.
Especially whenever I cough.
Now, I think flu is going to attack me again ;/

I love you, January.

2011-01-08T15:51:00.002+08:00

Can I?

Yesterday's outing was the first happiest outing for this year.
It's been a long time since i met van and xy! I really really miss my secondary school days. OMG.
We had so much fun playing card games. Yes, card games. "Heart Attack" makes me wanna heart attack. Lol. HL and I were so exhuasted after only a few rounds. Time really flies when I am with the usuals :)
But my eye was so itchy when i reached home! My eye was practically red and sore before I slept. OMG. And it still hasn't recover yet. :(

2011-01-06T12:03:00.002+08:00

I believe in fate/destiny.

I'm getting panic for my student. Time is not enough because we only have 1 lesson per week. How to cramp all the teaching within 2 hrs? And there's term test during March. I really really want her to pass. For the first time, I understand how teachers feel when they said, "I really wish I could help you guys to sit for the test, but I can't." Besides, today's lesson has cancelled. She has lost another opportunity to learn. OMG. I'm worried for her.

2011-01-04T14:47:00.002+08:00

Do you know what you want?

I'm quite sick today :( I guess I've caught a cold because I've been getting serious headache and shiver since ytd. Now, i'm freaking weak. Luckily, headache was under my control here.
Actually, I don't know what i want. Or perhaps I know what i want. OMG. I don't know what i'm saying. Stop thinking and that's what i can do now.
Frankly speaking, my life seems pretty good currently. I've a meaningful part-time job. I prepared tips, worksheets and tests. My mummy is nice to me and she has stopped nagging. I've wonderful friends who are always there for me. Be my listening ears and advisers. What's more can i ask for?
i'm going to enjoy these 2months. what's going to happen later on hopefully won't affect my attitude and mood for everything.

2010-12-31T18:48:00.003+08:00

The last chapter of 2010.

My teeth are giving me problem here. I can't eat very solid food and consume cold drinks. Alright, i'm gonna give my teeth a few days break from chewing hard food. hah! On a negative note, meanwhile I can't have my buffet :(

Anyway, 2010 is a drastic year for me. There were ups and downs. Half a year ago, my future seemed aimless. I can't predict my future, I felt lost. I was so down, so close to depression. But God makes me understand something and that's love. I know who truly cares for me. They were the ones who gave me support, encouragement, console and they are still doing so. I thanked them deep from my heart.

And then, I saw light and felt warmth. Whenever something good happened to me, I felt thankful. Sometimes, we shouldn't take things for granted but appreciate what we have had. And because of all the downs, I finally found a motto for myself. "You can't take things for granted. If you want something, work very very hard for it. Finally, let God decides what you are gonna get."

Because of friends and family, I'm motivated and feel at ease. Without them, I would not have come so far. Still kicking and staying healthily.

So well, what a climatic 2010 for me, yea.
Frankly speaking, I can't bear to leave 2010 and move on to 2011. I'm 20 next year! OMG. Freaking old. And i can't wait for my hair to grow long!

"I WANT MY FIREWORKS LATER!" :D

2010-12-29T20:18:00.003+08:00

Good to be busy. Or not?

Blah. I guess I've to stay up pretty late today just to get everything prepared for tmr. I'm occupied tmr morning plus afternoon. So i think i'm gonna miss buffet with my friends tmr! SO SAD! For the first time, i do not wish tmr is thursday.
Anyway, i spent quite a bit today. Shit. I spent too much money lately! It doesnt seem very healthy to put too much dollars inside my purse. I'm very likely to spend without considering the price. That's me. OMG. I found something i wanted to buy badly when i was at SASA. I want to buy clothing too... Oh my, this is scary...

2010-12-28T10:45:00.002+08:00

I guess I was deprived of shopping for a long long time (unknowingly). Because I bought many skin/face/hand products in a day! I seriously think I'm crazy at that instant. OMG.
post christmas celebration was full of nonsense with the usuals! :D
Dinner was deliciously awesome! Suddenly, I miss SP and XY and VAN and VIV and SHAHIRA....
omg. Secondary school classmates are the best! I miss those days when we studied, played and crapped together. wahaha.
yeap, bye for now. I've things to do.

2010-12-23T20:22:00.004+08:00

lalala~

today was a pretty fine day :) i woke up, exercised, went out and gave tuition.

i want to cycle badly, but everyone is going to be so busy tmr :( sad.

but hopefully tmr is gonna be a happy day for me ;)

hanging out with friends and going my friend's house to celebrate in the evening.

i really hope it's gonna be fine.

frankly speaking, i feel very blessed especially this year's christmas.

and i'm thankful for everything.

"the mysteries of love" and "take care of the young lady (my fair lady)"

are pretty nice dramas.

i super love "the mysteries of love"!!!! (crime and forensic science) <3

2010-12-16T22:46:00.003+08:00

everyone has their first time on every single thing.

I felt pretty satisfied today. A little nervous yet a little excited. I can't forsee anything ahead, i just hope everything goes well. Actually i feel a little unsure. omg.
Anyway, i can't wait for christmas day! I'm so looking forward to this year christmas! :)
catching up with the usuals is fun and lovely. I miss them much! Not forgetting those awesome/close/best friends of mine. Suddenly I remembered a particular awesome item which i think i should buy it for myself for this christmas:) I even dream of it a few days back. oh lord.
Talking about dreams, I had a horrible dream today. totally freak me out. I dreamt that I still need to sit for english exam today. I woke up and started panicking. oh shit, I still have one last paper to sit for! But wondering for a minute, i realised im having holidays right here. frankly speaking, it wasn't the first time i've dreamed of such terrifying thing. countless times. But today 's dream practically shock me up.
Oh by the way, "My Fair Lady" korean drama was pretty nice to watch :) I guess I have to grab it from CD store bcos i still haven't watch finish. Censorship remember?Argh.

2010-12-11T19:22:00.002+08:00

im quite panic out of the blue. I have a really bad feeling right here. OMG. what if, what if... Gosh, why am i so panic suddenly?? i think i should spend my time wisely here and be mentally prepared. What if i can't even get into engineering faculty?? OMG. I'm so dead.

2010-12-09T12:03:00.003+08:00

It's so easy to cry over small little things. But it gets so difficult to cry when you're deeply and truly hurt. Because you no longer know what's true affections.
It looks pretty silly and dumb.

2010-12-05T18:32:00.002+08:00

It was so cute when a dad said "Hello~" to his 5 years old daughter whenever she failed to hit the shuttercock. CUTE!!~ :D

2010-12-03T16:47:00.002+08:00

I feel blessed because my family and many of my friends care for me. There's nothing more important than kinship and friendship. Everything becomes clear when you have encountered obstacles. You know who truly cares for you. People, please cherish your family and friends. When you have lost you way or trapped in a dark cave, only those who cares for you, will lead and support you all the way. Yes, sometimes things have to be felt with your heart only.

2010-11-29T18:34:00.003+08:00

Personally, i feel that celebrity worship is not a positive phenomenon. It's alright to admire, love or like them but not beyond the limit. Well, at least i'm trying to remind myself. Because i'm the kind of person who will dwell into this "fantasy" world if i allow myself to. And i mean it. I'm like such a big fan of these celebrities, searching high and low for their images, websites and news. Is that how their fans feel too? I think such behaviour is very unhealthy. In fact, it's poisonous. I was wondering how some people could juggle so well between work and celebrity worship. Because I myself couldn't do it, AT ALL. To me, it's like a deep hole which suck me in deeper and deeper. It requires a lot of effort to pull myself back again. Isn't it stupid to put yourself into the same dire state again even though you know that would happen?
So I've decided to watch less teevee programmes if i have to. Unless I can find a solution how to pull myself back as fast as possible.
Alright, i know this is a very boring entry. Because i couldn't find anything to share for the time being.

"There's no limit, no barrier."

2010-11-24T12:12:00.003+08:00

Not long before, i used to hate one person out of this 19years. But monday was the day i found another person whom i really hate from top to bottom. Everything about this person just makes me feel disgusted. I HATE THIS PERSON LIKE MAD!!! I swear i will never pity this person even if this person begged me or whatsoever. I'm gonna sit back and laugh at how pathetic this person is. I seriously couldn't forget the sarcastic, shallow remarks this person made. How could you judge a person like that. I'm gonna succeed and tell you, YOU'RE A LOSER! This person is not worth to mention it here any further.
XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

"I can't believe I'm making the same mistake again."

2010-10-30T15:15:00.001+08:00

TIME IS PRESSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

Life has been hectic. There are so many things need to be done within a day. And i seriously couldn't accomplish every task as planned. But well, I'm taking a little short break here since my computer is on and I've did a little research earlier on. Actually, I've watched finished this Korea drama, Playful Kiss, a week ago. Super cute and sweeeeet can!!~ a little romantic. But argh well, I shouldn't dwell too much into it. Major exam is just around the corner! And i can't afford to spend all my time gawking at how handsome Kim Hyung Joong is~ :( studies is still the priority and IT'S MY ONLY PRIORITY(for the time being). LOL!
Okay, bye.

2010-10-16T21:57:00.006+08:00

I have serious -short term memory- syndrome...

Tuesday was econs consultation for the whole class. The tutor came in and looked a little distracted or whatsoever. Half an hour later, an econs lecturer came in and we were pretty shocked. She asked the tutor, "why haven't you eaten your lunch yet?" (in a 'motherly' tone) And my tutor looked so much like a child as if she was caught by her mother being mischievous.
Frankly speaking, I was really touched at that moment. My tutor skipped her lunch because she tried her best to give us consultation. Oh lord, she's such a great teacher. You know, the feeling was so overwhelming. It's like you tutor tried so hard to help you, you should work hard as well. Else you are going to disappoint you tutor. awww~

Well, isn't it a nice incident to share with you guys so that you will work hard and not disappoint your teachers?? I mean everyone should work hard now. What's more, we are in the same battle field, we are all in it :) Get the motivation now??

Alright, these days were a little crazy too. Mock exams. But well, I didn't really care much honestly speaking. And just to sidetrack a little, it was disgustingly and terribly hot and humid these days! I HATE HOT WEATHER!!! How I wish I could stay in the library 24hrs so that I could enjoy the air-con. Argh.

"God will bless you if you show it that you deserve the blessing."

2010-10-10T21:13:00.003+08:00

okay, it has been quite crazy these days. Crazy days make me crazy. I feel so stressed and weak. How I wish I could be more rebellion. But the angel in me told me not to. I feel so tied up, I want to break free and stretch out my wings! It's not that I want freedom, I just wanna loosen up a bit. I'm so frustrated and I couldn't feel more angry with myself than this time. Whatever, I'm not going to care about anything anymore. I just want to do everything as fast as possible.

"The speed of writing should be same as the speed of thinking."

2010-09-26T17:08:00.005+08:00

2010-09-26T13:36:00.002+08:00

Picnic at ECP! more photos on fb :)

ytd was a short window shopping cum catch up session with Jo! Like finally I'm able to meet up with my super beloved best friend :). In fact, we were primary school classmates and we are still keeping in touch with each other! Photos will be uploaded once my phone batt is fully charged :) Anyway, I doubt I will have time to do more catch up with my friends :(... But Abi said we will meet up after A lvl, good :) And perhaps a little short "destress" session with hl after her pre A lvl exams. She's so stressed now and I could feel how she was feeling. Bcos that was how I felt before my exams!! OMG.

"Be prepared."

2010-09-23T16:33:00.002+08:00

Was watching Titanic Documentary half an hour ago and I only completed 10/20 parts! Omg. It basically shows you how Titanic was built and how it ended up sinking upon hitting the ice berg. (From what I've watched) It was really disheartening. There was this female survivor who said something like, "The sky was dark and the ocean was so calm. It makes Titanic looked so beautiful from far. It started sinking and I could see people standing at the edges hoping very much to be rescued." Like awww, so sad right? The feelings were beyond words. Thinking back, The Titanic movie played by Leonardo DiCaprio was 13 years ago! Omg. So old but it was one of those classic movies which i can't forget. Still very nice and worth watching :)
Anyway, I LOVE staying at home! So comfortable and I can basically kill time just by watching teevees/sleep/eat. How I wish I could travel overseas at this time~ I missed those days when I was in HK during the June hols. You don't need to worry about anything!
I just realised, life is all about stress. school days = stress. working days = stress. retiring days = stress (the only good thing about getting old is you're given the liberty and reason to travel all around the world!) Look, I'm more pessismistic about life now...

2010-09-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

In the end, i still went to IKEA today. hah! had my soup and bought my storage box. It was so freaking big I found it difficult to bring it home. But i still manage to do so.
And I don't know what's wrong with me, I was so exhausted after the 2hrs walking-around-IKEA cum Giants session. I could barely open my eyes right now but I've to "Shang Yue" tonight. How i wish I can sleep on my bed right now?~
Okay, i think i shall pack my stuff tmr. I will sleep sleep sleep till I get tired of sleeping. And i will rest at home till i get bored of it. hah!

2010-09-21T23:11:00.002+08:00

YaY! Prelim's over! :D Yeah, i think i've screwed all papers up. like seriously. I'm too tired and I can't think properly. Worst, it's not like I've many weeks to prepare for prelim. so huh huh, well... But 5 days of break! It's so cool and I think it's the first time there's such thing like marking days in this college. I'm freeeeea!~ (for the time being) And I'm so happy and contented bcos I've 5days break!
Anyway, I'm so freaking tired after the long park walking session. But I get to enjoy it without paying tax for it. hahas.
I really hope I could shop till I drop for the remaining days of break but I know it's insanely impossible. So how?? Frankly speaking, I want to go IKEA to purchase some storage boxes and... boxes. yep. And perhaps chill out a little and eat delicious meatballs and soup. However, I know most likely I won't be going bcos my feet told me not to. HAHS! I'm psychologically and physically exhausted. You know the kind of feeling. It's like you want to go so much yet you're too exhausted you can't be bothered of anything else anymore. So well, most probably I'm gonna stay at home and rest. I can imagine myself sleeping till early noon, eat, watch tv, eat, watch tv, sleep. How wonderful is that?!

"Energize yourself!"

2010-09-17T22:41:00.004+08:00

tired like mad. i havent had my nap for the past few hrs and i really really want to sleep! :S
but i can't. i just had my dinner/supper and i have yet done my assignment. gosh. okay, so how? should i sleep or should i do my work?? anyway, i'm so depressed today. i'm stressed and people are freaking me out. On top of that, i'm deprived of shopping! like seriously. shopping for pretty clothes, shoes, accessories, blah blah blah... the list just goes on. and i lacked the time to meet up with my friends. i seriously missed them and i missed the htht sessions with them. In short, i have no life, as simple as that, full stop, bye bye.

I want my pretty pretty things and loads of chill out time!

"it's either you bear the consequences after that or you give your best shot before all the desires. You choose what you want."

2010-09-11T12:13:00.002+08:00

*cough, cough, cough*

I'm such a loser. Stress has make me feels weak and fragile. It's saturday, hello!~ And i'm still not done with most of my studying. Half of ytd and today time went down to something which are not related to next week's exams. GREAT. So with a really useless body and unprepared mind, how well will i perform for the exams?? Incredibly bad? Or simply speechless?

"Tough on the itside and tough on the outside."

2010-09-10T20:52:00.003+08:00

I'm so stressed! Ya, that's my usual phrase/sentence. Well, it can't be helped okay. I only have 2 days to study (not includes monday). OMG, i running crazy bcos i have not enough time to study! Alright, while in a midst of studying, i'm taking a break here. I hope it can soothe my tension. Suddenly, i missed looking at prett~y photographs. so gonna make me happy for sure :). But, no no no, it's prelim time! Well, maybe i should surf the Internet for a while. teehee.

"I need people to give me some encouraging words!"

anyway, i found a really good quote : "it does no matter how long you go so long you do not stop."

2010-09-01T14:30:00.003+08:00

My mind is spinning. I'm sick of having to deal with so many things at one go. Information overload! I could barely take in. The feeling is like drinking too much water until you want to puke. So how? Any shortcuts? Apparently there is none. Well, i just got to hang on then. Thinking of which, i was reminded that i only have approximately 2months to prepare the major exams. 2months!!! shit. minus off the time to study for prelim and the time to sit for prelim, i only have 1month to get myself prepare. OMG.

"You should be worrying before sitting for the exams instead of the other way round."

2010-08-31T22:01:00.002+08:00

oh my god, my blog is so dead. Seriously, i can't do much about it bcos i was too occupied with school work! I guess i'm spending like 13-14hrs on school work almost every single day. well, so which means i only get approximately 5hrs to sleep everday. alright alright, perhaps i'm the most fortunate one compared to the rest. (for getting 5hrs of sleep) I'm just ranting you see. so, just ignore me. Haas.
On top of this, exams is getting real close. In fact, it's just around the corner! (mind you, it's on thursday) I'm like so screwed. PC was suaning me for most of the time. For instance, he always says i look like someone who got run over by a vehicle weighed 10 tonnes. So...., that's it. I'm so stressed. I'm stressed over GP, I'm stressed over other subjects too! I only have 1 week to study for 4 subjects. It's too much for me to take in! okay okay, i have to stop my ranting before it fills the entire page. :x
anyway, i was practically hooked onto 9pm channel 8 show all these while. Unriddled, yes, or Unriddle? okay, fine, so long you get what i meant. Rui En was so super cool! :D After i have watched the final episode, my response was like... what?! So there's another season coming up next, is there? okay. i shall wait patiently...

2010-08-18T16:59:00.002+08:00

OMG, I CANT BELIEVE PERSONAL PREFERENCE IS GOING TO BE ON SCREEN ON CHANNEL U THIS COMING SAT!! (SCREAMS!) I DIDNT EXPECT IT BCOS THE DRAMA SOMEHOW CONCERNED OF GAY ISSUE. IN ANY CASE, IM STILL GOING TO WATCH IT IN SPITE OF THE FACT THAT IVE WATCHED ONCE BEFORE. BCOS ITS SO HILARIOUS, I ALMOST LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY EVERYTIME I WATCHED THE DRAMA, ESPECIALLY THE FIRST FEW EPISODES! OMG,THIS POST IS SUPER RANDOM AND LAME. BUT IM EXCITED! PS:( ALL IN CAPITAL FORM AGAIN....)

2010-08-01T10:38:00.002+08:00

1st August, like finally~ :)

I have a lot of hw need to be done this week! Alright, no point panicking or whatsoever. I'm sure if you manage your time well, you can accomplish many tasks within a short period of time ;)

ps: Frankly speaking, i have a lot to share. However, I'm too lazy to post.. :P

"If I can do it, so do you! :) "

2010-07-22T20:38:00.003+08:00

This week was the most tiring week ever. I can't seem to get enough sleep (alright, i do take nap). Luckily, sw sent me a motivating message when i needed most at that time! Really worked on me. At least i know i'm not the only one who is suffering!
last but not least, i must thank God!:) He has given me chances and pulled me through obstacles.
:)

"It's a form of encouragement."

2010-07-18T20:25:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling ULTIMATELY stressed! :( seriously not a good sign. I don't know where i'm heading to and i don't know where i'm coming from! My brain is filled with information that tangles up and i seriously need to untangle them before 12 strikes. Alright, keeping in mind, i still need to absorb them. Argh, GP is driving me crazy! My mum irritates me by turning on the radio. I hate it! :( so what's wrong?? i can't seem to relax now, i'm panicking!!! Argh~ I really need help for GP, SOS!!!!

"CHILL~~"

2010-07-18T00:05:00.002+08:00

Okay, i doubt i have the time to blog about the china/hk trip which i've had during the june hols. It requires time to describe and all. So yep. As usual, i'm feeling stressed. Ultimately stressed this time, this week. Despite exam was over, everyday is like exam period to me. It's not like i'm studying everyday(i was slacking almost everyday), i just feel the pressure on me. O-M-G. GP is driving me nuts especially. So how?! :( chilling time doesn't work anymore, needless to say going for retail therapy. i've another 3 months to struggle. It sounds like i couldn't wait to leave school, eh? Actually i'm hoping for more months to prepare for the major exam. Time is totally not enough (and i'm still slacking -.-)! I want to play bb and go cycling with the usuals!!!!!

"Discipline is all you need."

2010-07-11T14:51:00.002+08:00

Why do i have such a miserable life? I mean things are getting too tough on me, out of nowhere. I just feel stressed and could barely breathe. So what's wrong? Tomorrow is monday and i don't want it to come. It's too scary for me. The results and all are freaking me out for the past few days. help!!!! alright, there's nothing i could about it anyway, i might as well think of the happy memories which i've had. Yesterday was cycling session (supposed to be) with the usuals. Ended up playing Uno for the 'whole' day? Cause' it was raining, duh. But it was all great! :) And we were planning to go HK together next year!! (i supposed van and xy were very serious about it)
Haas. okay, so there are plans and deals.

1. going Kbox for the first time if we get good grades for A lvl ;)
2. going HK (it would be great if i can get decent grades for A lvl, no worries but fun!)
.....

okay, i think there are more.

so yep, "you reap what you sow" .

ps: can someone just comfort me by telling me, "It's okay if you're not doing well this time, you're going to ace everything for the upcoming exam?"

2010-07-08T20:20:00.002+08:00

IM STRESSED! THE EVIL THOUGHT IN ME KEEP REMINDING ME IM A FAILURE.. I CANT HELP BUT FEELING HORRIBLE WITH MYSELF. THE MOST FRUSTRATING THING IS MY COMPUTER IS LAGGING LIKE AN OLD MAN! I CANT EVEN UPLOAD ALL THE PHOTOS ON FACEBOOK! ON A BRIGHTER NOTE, IM GOING PRP WITH THE USUALS ON THIS COMING SAT!! HOPE IT DOESNT RAIN~ OKAY,STRESS MODE ON. PS: ( I DONT HAVE THE SLIGHTEST INTENTION TO CHANGE ALL MY WORDS INTO CAPITAL LETTERS, ITS MY CELL PHONE :( ) "WAY INTO HELL"

2010-07-06T13:31:00.002+08:00

im dead tired. and i mean it. my throat hurts and my whole body is so hot! i bet my body temperature can boil an egg. what's more, i cant sleep even though i would very much like to do so! this feeling is totally unbearable. hence,the only solution i can think of is keep hydrating myself such that i can keep cool and fight the hot weather.

2010-07-05T09:43:00.002+08:00

awww... for the first time, i forget my blogger's password :( but anyway, it's alright. i suddenly have the urge to blog even though i know i shouldn't be blogging at this point in time. Well, cause' i was certainly quite busy these days. Hence, i find no time uploading the photos taken from abroad to facebook :( if i'm not wrong, i have taken more than 160 photos!! and printing out the photos was like sucking out my blood despite i wasnt the one who paid for it. so well, surely i'll find some times to blog about it (if time allows).

I WANT TO WATCH ECLIPSE!! :(

okay, time to change my blogskin!

"a certain amount of stress will get you moving, beyong a certain amount of stress will drive you insane."

2010-05-14T20:16:00.002+08:00

i accept everything that God has decided for me. There is no point whining or cursing under my breathe because it isn't like my grades are awesome enough to get a place in uni. But i'm more certain which course i will be choosing in another few months ahead. :)

"it's alright to admit that you're a failure but it's absolutely not alright to give yourself up."

2010-05-09T15:01:00.002+08:00

i've a strong feeling that things are going to turn out bad. i'm not longing to receive any letter from any university cause' i'm afraid to receive a rejection letter. and wait, i even think that i might have to go for interview before they consider letting me in. so well, i shall left it to God to decide and i shall stay mute.

"the greatest mistake to be done is to ignore the smallest details."

2010-05-01T15:57:00.002+08:00

i can't believe my fav celebrities are working together in a drama series, PERSONAL PREFERENCE! (lee min ho & son ye jin) screams!!!!! XD i love it to the max. and the drama was so funny, totally worth watching. :P

2010-04-29T20:42:00.002+08:00

whoa.i dreamt of PC while i was having my power nap this afternoon.what he told me stressed me.and really to side-track, i can't seem to get enough food these days.i need meat!alright, i sounded like a carnivore.but yep, i want to eat MOS chicken actually.hahs.

"it's very difficult to concentrate when you're feeling extremely unwell."

2010-04-17T15:48:00.002+08:00

i was arrogant.i only discovered it when bad and unforeseeable circumstances hit me hard onto my face.isn't it too late to feel regretful by then? "the greatest enemy is yourself."

2010-04-16T17:56:00.005+08:00

there was this person doing survey at cp and he approached me. he asked me if i did save money. obviously i do save "the leftovers", only a few buck(max)! so well, i said "yep". and he asked how much i saved in a month. i thought, well, 5 bucks. and he seemed appalled by my response! i guess he can't believe what he has heard of. so he said, "5, you meant 500?" and hell no, it's 5! and that was it. no further questioning. he simply said a thank you. hahas. i was wondering what will he react if i said i don't save a single cent in a month. i think most probably he will faint. hahas! so well, you know now, i don't save, perhaps a few cents, or max a few bucks. i simply don't save much! most of the time, i spend all i have have. unless this amount of money is my hard earned money. maybe i will try to save as much as possible. alright, i'm greedy and selfish like mad. but what can i do?

2010-04-16T14:17:00.001+08:00

It is friday!! :)

2010-04-12T21:04:00.003+08:00

i thanked God for blessing me in each and every ways. there are obstacles which i may need to encounter with. However, like what i've said before, everything comes with a purpose. so well, you've no choice but to face the problem!

"To excel, the first thing you have to do is to make as many mistakes as possible."

2010-04-04T13:29:00.002+08:00

i have been surfing the Internet for 4 freaking hours and i still couldn't find much valid information i wanted. *yawn* grabbing information from the net is really a bore. i think my eyes are going to pop out soon. and hell, the smell of food makes me sick. i have been very picky about food these days. i like to eat nicey food, not boring food. yes, i did mention i felt nuseous lately and i'm still having this problem till today. so frustrating.

ps: To succeed, keep up with the momentum and consistently telling yourself, "I'm going to do my best".

2010-04-01T23:44:00.002+08:00

this week was the most embarrassing week. i don't know why i'm still so blur and idiotic at the age of 19. OH-MY-GOD.

2010-03-30T17:59:00.002+08:00

as usual, im under tremendous amount of stress. perhaps, it is building up every sec, min and hour. i feel remorseful when i know i didnt put in my utmost effort for each and every things. and it gets worse when i really get a pile of shit in return. frankly speaking, i lose steam quite easily. how to sustain the momentum? i really have no idea. i only know that the more i work hard, the more giddy i feel. it is as though i'm only spinning around with my head. so sick and scary.

thankful

2010-03-29T23:33:00.002+08:00

i must thank God for treating me so well this morning.
a bus passenger "helped" me :)
well, you don't need to know what has happened precisely.
i just want to share that i'm really grateful and i appreciate the things that God tries to give me.

tell yourself

2010-03-28T16:08:00.002+08:00

i have so much to share. too much that i can't write every single bits down. i would simply say, "come and look for me personally, i'll fill you in with every single little details." perhaps i'm too emotional or whatsoever, but i think everything has planned for me. everything exists for a purpose and the purpose is me. it's a turning point for me. the next time you see me, maybe i'm more mature pyschologically. (if you were someone who is close to me.)

PS: pen down what you wish to achieve and tell yourself, "You're going to get it by hook or by crook".

2010-03-28T15:43:00.001+08:00

someone you should look up to : ROGER FEDERER.

V V STRESS!

2010-03-27T09:33:00.003+08:00

STRESS = BAD HEADACHE + TERRIBLE EYES PAIN + DIZZY + FEELING NAUSEATE DESPITE BEING HUNGARY...

RAHH!

2010-03-25T22:33:00.003+08:00

Because of my ignorance, anxiety and "act smart" attitude, i lost the chance to edit my non-academic achievement. i'm so flared up but feeling lost of don't know what to do.

STRESS!

2010-03-24T13:04:00.002+08:00

im under tremendous amount of stress which i never have had before in my life. I DESERVE IT.

the day of HELL.

2010-03-04T13:51:00.002+08:00

i guess i couldn't hide the worries in me.
i know i shouldn't say more of this,
but hell, tmr is gonna be the day.
the day of hell and sufferings.
like it or not,
i still have to get back my results.
and i'm feeling so inferior these days.
i don't know why.
the feeling starts to get stronger whenever i think deeper.
i want to stay optimistic but everything surrounding me tells me not to.
okay,
i really don't know what to do.

2010-02-25T18:35:00.002+08:00

how much information can one brain stored
and how many brain cells do we used up in thinking?
perhaps everyone knows the general answers.
but what if both questions applied to your own brain?
how much information can my own brain stored
and how can i maximised the usage of my brain?
question after question.
i've been thinking them every so often.
this entry seems a lil too serious, too bored or whatsoever can you think of.
but yeah, here comes a lil serious thinking.
at least i'm doing so.
i poured all my silly, stupid, crappy thoughts out to hl just then.
alright, at least i feel a bit better afterwhich.
i just feel that i've been making mistake after mistake.
i can't say i'm regretting it, cause' "regret" doesn't seem to be the right word to use.
rather, i guess i should be saying, "i should have make things looked better."
i'm not regretting it, cause' i should be saying "i should have managed my time well at that moment."
i already have prepared for the worst case scenario.
make it or not, at least i know where i should be going to and not getting myself lost in a maze.

random bits.

2010-02-17T21:02:00.003+08:00

it's been long since the last entry!
oh gosh.
i missed my com, i missed surfing the net!
i was super happy when the Internet was back! (:
and yep, work was finally over!
actually ended a few days back.
hehs.
i was the first to get the pay!
and i got so embarrassed cause' all my part-time's colleagues were staring at me.
counting the cash basically -.-
but, happy happy happy! (:
as in i only worked for a short period of time yet i received a handsome pay.
but well, i worked straight for 12hrs for the last 2 weeks.
so yep.
but i'm very contented (:
hl and i are planning to go for the ntu talks!
okay, that's for all.
quite random actually.
hahs.

CHINA PPL:(

2010-01-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

I REALLY REALLY HATE CHINA PPL FROM NOW ON!
yes, i discriminate against them.
so what.
you know, i usually do accept all kind of people i've met as friends?
alright, so long they're decent in mind, i'm fine with it.
i don't care if they were fat, skinny, tall, short, ugly or pretty.
yea, basically i'm just a fair person.
unless you're those people who come to me
and try to act like a king.
like wth.
okay, so on this beautiful day itself,
i accounted the most frustrating incident!
so i was washing the greasy tongs and scissors for the first time at BCH.
i was told to use hot water to wash them.
mind you, it's HOT.
i don't know how to use the tap water,
like those shower type?
and the place to put the stuff was small.
alright, so i was washing patiently.
ps: was cursing and swearing in my head.
thanks to the supervisor who asked me to wash the damn greasy things.
and this china woman working there too, said this to me "ai, miss, can you be faster?"
in a very aggressive and irritated tone.
like wth!!
so what if she has more working experiences than i had.
like so arrogant and shit!
i tell you, i'm going to make it to the U and carves out a successful life with my own hands!
i'll show her what i'm capable of doing!!
i was SO flared up, okay.
what a nice 19th birthday i've had.

i love my home :)

2010-01-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

if someone asks me what makes me happy now,
i would simply reply, "staying at home", without thinking twice.
i LOVE staying at home cause' my apartment is windy most of the months.
:)
i can sleep for 11hrs everyday,
wake up and watch teevee.
perhaps do some fun learning if i'm bored.
life seems boring but pleasing.
you don't need to bother how people will look at you,
or worry if you're bad luck on the day itself.
cause' you're safe at home!
my body is aching these days!
i just couldn't pull myself to wake cause' the muscles are aching like nobody's business.
it totally ruins my day.
especially i'm going out like everyday! (includes working)
it spoils my mood and i start to get very tired easily.
helping my niece with her homework was alright.
but sometimes, it was quite difficult to make her understand the reason behind those workings.
she just simply don't understand!

OFF OFF

2010-01-23T20:20:00.002+08:00

I'M OFF FROM MY WORK TMR!!

i'm freaking happy! :) :)
but i need to go to my uncle's hse and help my niece with her homework.
so what is this?!
hello, girls, please ask me out.
i don't want to stay at my uncle's hse for the whole day!!!!
there's a purpose for having an off day okay.
it's a day to let down your hair and go wild!!!!!!!! :)

NERDY

2010-01-21T23:23:00.003+08:00

HELLO, nerdy nerdy.

yea, so i did say about the tuck-in-shirt thing on my previous post.
the super damn nerdy look.
i mean it, seriously.
like, OMG.
i went to work today, and i almost wanted to dig a hole to stuck my head into it.
you know, yea, sometimes i just don't care how i looked.
but sometimes, i do matter it a lot!
perhaps it's all about the psychological thing.
and yea, so i was reading hl's blog just then.
know what, i seriously can't stop laughing!
i'm laughing out like mad.
tucking in is the new trend?! O.O
omg, damn hilarious!!
an imagine immediately came to my mind.
a person tucked in her shirt, and pulled her pant super high up.
and say "YO YO" with hands gesture.
isn't it funny?!
HAHAHHAHAHA!
omg, since when am i so funny?
HOHOHO~
work does drive me insane eh?

ps: NERDY IS THE NEW TREND TOO!!!

NERDY~

2010-01-19T22:14:00.004+08:00

okay.
hl and i went to serangoon for the second BCH's interview.
after all the procedure and thing, we're officially employed!
we just need to wait for the person to call and tell us about the working time.
and seriously, i didn't think too much.
at most, my grandparents will nag at me for 3 days.
hopefully, they'll stop the nagging after everything has ended.
yep.
what else can i do?!
anyway, "nerdy" was my commonly used word today and perhaps in the future.
HAHAHAHS!
can you imagine tucking your t-shirt into your jean??
it's so awfully ugly, isn't it?
especially the t-shirt is not very long.
GAWK.
i'm having the nerdy nerdy look again!!!!!
should i be happy?
hah.

A sad news

2010-01-18T18:37:00.004+08:00

i was all ready for work.
the interview, the shift and everything.
but as if some angels had passed this message to my grandparents,
they somehow knew it and asked me for certainty.
they weren't happy at all cause' they don't want me to work!
-.-
"how nice of them".
which means i've wasted my effort looking for a job.
my granddaddy told me i should spend the time to prepare for U.
i've 8 months for god's sake.
and i don't even know what to study.
as in how on earth would i know what to study.
different course has different thing to learn?
and let's say it's architecture.
i've to learn the history of architecture/Singapore's landscape and what not.
so does that mean i've to read those now!?
and what if i can't get into this course?
it really sounds silly, isn't it??
so well, i decided i don't care too much.
i think i'll just work straight ahead if Daiso wants me.
anyway, it's only a 4 hours' thing and it bloody nears my house.
ps: my granddaddy insisted that i shan't work despite i told him this.
frankly speaking, i don't mind working at BCH.
but now, i was sort of held back cause' i've to work till cny's eve.
and daddy only stayed over for 6 days before he flights again.
omg.
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO?!!!!

NO SAVING = NO BRACES

2010-01-16T23:30:00.002+08:00

HEHEHEH.
i realised i've spent A LOT recently.
spending and no saving.
how great.
ARGH.
i want to put on braces!
in case you know nuts about it,
i've been planning to put on braces for years.
alright, maybe i didn't mention it to most of the ppl,
but that doesn't mean i don't want.
HAHAHAH.
so yeah, i want and i'm trying to save up so that i can have my nice set of teeth!
so well, which means i've to work too.
but nvm about that.
what bothered me is the uncomfortable pain which i'll have :(
besides that, i could only think of the plus points of putting the braces on! :):)
HAAS.
and anyway, i went to the salon and rebonded my hair again!
i was so indecisive at first.
i don't know what hairstyle i want, and i don't even know if i should rebond my hair!
omg.
in the end, i just "go with the flow" :P
busy busy tmr!

OLD

2010-01-14T18:23:00.003+08:00

3 years ago :

last month:

i think i've grown older :(

especially the appearance.

i didn't even realise it until today!

i looked more dull.

yes, i still like the nerdy and innocent look which i had had! :)

i want my presents for Children's Day!!!!

HAHAS.

okay, i think i should really SPA my skin more often.

ps: still trying hard to be a good girl..

dilemma

2010-01-13T23:22:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm still choosing between architecture and accountacy.
you know, i just can't afford to make another mistake again.
not this time, seriously.
somehow, they're two different courses.
perhaps more than that.
i'm sure in a dilemma now.
omg. how?
argh, so frustrating.
but i went to the ecareer website,
and the occupation which matches my interest is architect.
so what now?

math

2010-01-13T15:22:00.003+08:00

i went to help my niece with her homework ytd.

hahahahas.

i was so rejoiced i could solve the math challenging qns!

you know, i've phobia solving primary school's math qns all along?

cause' i remembered how badly i've screwed the math's exam paper during primary school's time.

frankly speaking, i find it quite funny.

like how badly i've flunked the math's common exam in primary school yet

how i could manage to pass the math's common exam in junior college.

ps: actually i'm still praying hard for my results...

so aftermath, i was flipping through my niece's english homework.

AND i nearly burst out laughing!

cause' i saw many ridiculous ans in one of her exercises.

okay luh. i should get a grip of myself.

but overall, alright, she did quite fine.

she did her homework within the time limit which i've set.

hahas.

i was so stunned when she said i sounded like her teacher!

okay, so perhaps i've the potential to become a teacher huh?

HAHAS.

afterwhich, we went to sakae

and i think i ate a lot?

we spent like over a hundred bucks on food.

totally bloated like some puffer fish.

i want to be a good girl :)

NYP open house

2010-01-08T15:14:00.002+08:00

i went with hl to NYP open house ytd.
omg.
the moment i stepped into the school,
i thought i did make the right choice of going to JC.
poly life doesn't suit me at all!
alright, that was what i feel.
we walked around like some idiots will do,
trying to look for the venues!
and we had no goodies bag!!!!!!!!!
okay, so there were occupational therapy, physiotherapy, diagnostic therapy and radiation therapy for the A level's holders.
occupational therapy under the kids' section makes me wanted to sleep -.-
due to the soothing colors and music.
HAHAS.
i guess i should buy these -changing-color- lights and put them in my room.
so nice! :)
alright, so i was thinking of joining diagnostic therapy if i had nowhere to go.
you know, the alternatives.
but i still hope to get into local U.
aftermath, we went to AMK hub.
AND i spent my money so quickly!
i bought a bag and a t-shirt?
hl bought a lovely "CLOWN" t-shirt and a short?
So funny, i didn't know hl suits to wear CLOWN's shirt!!!
so well, we ended up having no money to develope our photos.
great.
okay, gtg, tadda!

nerve-wrecking experience

2010-01-05T12:28:00.003+08:00

I was held back for a long period of time.
And when i wanted to give it a try,
I might not have the chance anymore.

As the date gets closer, the more i feel nerve-wrecking.
i'm worried, tensed, afraid...
the bumping sound on my apartment's ceiling has stopped,
but i realised my heart beats faster when i thought of
the nightmarish issue.
can i just fast forward the time and
let me take a peep of my results?
no matter how bad it is,
at least i'm mentally prepared.
i can start to plan ahead instead of having to waste the time here.
i remembered the last time i got so nerve-wrecking was last yr?
the mid-course cum promotion.
i can't get myself to sleep.
i stayed up quite late just to read books/listen to radio.
ps: the songs played after midnight were always the best :)
i tried to struggle my life through.
it was never a nice experience for me, NEVER.
this time, i'm experiencing it again. 2months.
am i still able to struggle through??

NOISY NOISE!!!!!!!!

2010-01-04T18:30:00.002+08:00

*THUMPS, THUMPS...!!!*

*DRILL, DRILL DRILL...!!!!*

my god.
i woke up in shock today.
the neighbour staying above my apartment
was hell freaking irritating!!
he/she/they knocked and drilled the floor in the morning.
and please, this was not the only time.
sometimes, they did the drilling, knocking & splashing at night/ in the evening.
god knows what they were doing up there.
what i knew was i got so frustrated, i went to rp's Mac.
read novel, AND solved some math/physics questions!
crazy or what. hehes.
but i forgot to bring the formula list -.-
boring life still.
please give me some suggestions how to spend my day!!!!!

Sundays At Tiffany's

2010-01-03T18:53:00.005+08:00

i dislike kids.
But strangely enough, i like photos which portrait them.

yea.

nothing special happening.

i'm still lazying around at home.

and i know, i'm so lazy i've yet to upload the fireworks' video.

blah. soon, on fb.

i was wondering if you guys had came across this book,

Sundays At Tiffany's.

but i guess it isn't a bad idea to share.

so yep, i think it's a good fiction book/novel.

anyone who likes to read romance novel perhaps can go for it.

not too draggy.

never mind about a few pages of -too-in-depth-illustration-

(you know what i meant)

HAHAS.

frankly speaking, i would like it to turn into a movie :)

so go and GOOGLE it!

hehes.

okay, to side track a little,

i'm very bored these days.

first thing, i can't go out for the past few days due to my peeling skin.

and now, there's no event for me despite i've recovered!

no reason for me, or perhaps i'm too lazy to go out.

no plan, nothing!

i wish i can head out and catch a movie!

okay, i know i start to get very random here.

time to stop. bye!

my skin

2009-12-31T17:49:00.003+08:00

my skin is still peeling off
and it makes a whole mess on my face.
i'm utterly mad about it!
okay, i know it's my fault.
but you know, it totally ruins my day (doesn't matter on whose fault) !
my plan to head out shopping was cancelled.
i can't go out to gawk at the firework later.
so frustrating, right?
but on a more positive note,
i'm still able to look at the firework through my windows.
so well, that's much better.
the prom night's photos shocked me much.
totally NOT me!!
they edited until i looked like a different person, more or less.
too perfect, flawless.
more like some wax statues!
and you know what, i simply lied them around in the living room.
HECK CARE.
gosh, i'm so not happy these days.
everything goes haywired.
before i forget, i still need to return the books to the lib a couple of days later.
and here, bits and pieces of my skin are hanging loose on my face.
how ugly and how pathetic i am right now?
hahas.
i think i'm a little exaggerating here.
but well, at least the idea is there, yes?

i'm enjoying myself later.
in my house, with the firework, obviously!
bye! :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

more of this

2009-12-28T12:35:00.002+08:00

went to play basketball with xy, sp, van, yz and hl ytd.
And expectantly, i've sunburned!
my face is freaking hot here, especially my forehead.
this hot sensation totally disturbed my sleep last night.
that's why i'm still staying at home like some nerds will do.
hehes.
but i've got to admit, i've had a great time playing with them! :)
some catching up with each other's life even though i didn't talk much.
hahas.
perhaps i'm more of a listener rather than a speaker.
but truthfully, i enjoyed myself!!!
i hope we can meet up more often! :):)
anyway, i want to watch Alvin & the chipmunks 2!!!
damn cute!!! :)

troubles

2009-12-26T18:37:00.004+08:00

i'm super mad now.
like seriously.
i've been having tiff with mum every now and then.
you know, like almost everyday?!
simply over small issues.
my fault or her fault?
alright, i'm stubborn, so does she.
but i guess she gets more emotional than i.
omg, too much time to spare, haven't we?
too much time that we quarrel merely to kill time.
well, thinking hard, i don't think i'm the one who triggers the whole quarrel thing.
argh.
i better stick myself to the chair all day, and surf the Internet.
or locked myself in my room and read books.
that's the best solution, isn't it?
my god.
but i can't bear to leave mum alone too.
letting her alone is too harsh an action for me to do.
darn.

christmas christmas

2009-12-25T00:17:00.002+08:00

-clevertv.com

i love this lovely picture! :)

and hello, i guess it was from Eclipse?!

it's enough for me to get excited about this movie.

Yayness.Wow!

but tell you what, i'm more excited & looking forward to Breaking Dawn!

i want to know who's gonna be the one acting Renesmee :):)

so cute and pretty.

don't get me disappointed, please...

hahas.

and by the way,

just to side track a little.

i hate immature people!

immature in the brain specifically.

come on, you're not young anymore!

please be rational.

argh.

i'm feeling high and low because of this recently.

kill me please.

and hey, it's CHRISTMAS today!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS, PEOPLE! :)

x'mas celebration!

2009-12-23T18:36:00.035+08:00

22DEC
christmas celebration with hl, pj and pearly! :)
i didn't go for the class chalet
and i'm really sorry about it. :(
watched AVATAR 3D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:)

i felt that the first 20mins scenes were a lil dragging.
but the rest were so awesome!
the fight scenes, the glowing plants, the....
like everything!!
there were a few things which i've aware after watching this movie.
not just the things which i've seen from my naked eyes.
it was those messages that left behind for people to understand.
first thing, LOVE THE NATURE, people!
please do not destroy the nature, for it'll destroy your future.
and second thing is, UNITY, people!
what i've noticed lately was, people are no longer united together.
especially in critical circumstances.
the way they can't compromise one another,
they failed to put themselves in another person's shoe and think,
and they couldn't respect one another.
the kind of unity seen in the movie,
sadly to say, was unable to see in this world.
you know sometimes, the more you yearn for something,
the harder you get it.
alright, enough of this.
let's move on :)
again, the rest of the photos are gonna upload on fb!!
stay tune:)

went to xin wan breakfast/lunch.

see that? rmb that!

the presents which i've received!!! :)

happy to the max!

HEHES! :P

pj very funny leh~

taken using pearly's cam.

taken using my cam.
and you know the distinguish diff btw the two photos.

purple!

singapore flyer!

2009-12-18T22:23:00.019+08:00

OMG. can i simply scream my lungs out right now?!
cause' i've had a SUPER hard time uploading photos!
dots.
HAHAS.
actually i'm just lazy to upload photos
especially when there are dozens of them!
hehes.
i just randomly picked a few of them, the rest are on fb.
okay, let's begin with last thur.
i went to the Singapore Flyer with the usual clique! :)
DAMN funny and i really meant it!

some kiddos went to SF too!
HL and probably my worst enemy!
hahas!

YZ was some hollywood's celebrities?! HAHAS!

HL was trying to act emo. HAHAS!
lame right?!

ACTION 1

ACTION 2
OPPS!

they'll show you some awesome poses if you asked them.
HEHES!

i'm trying to look lady-like! HAAS.

it looks like a roller coaster to me :S

we were fooling around like nobody's business
when in fact there were CCTV in the capsule!
hehes.
totally insane.
i like ! :)
HAHAS.
HL and i rejected the job at GWC.
we were totally stunned when we were told to start work straight off!
omg.
cause' they only told us on the phone, they were going to tell us something on that day.
alright.
i'm just too stunned.
i need to work from 1-9pm when the place was quite deserted.
but the supervisor was really friendly.
i think i'll work well there.
but you know, i seriously don't like the place!!
argh.
aftermath, went to have lunch at ichiban!

went to a 'EGYPT 'place.
make a guess!

hehes. i took a pict with the mummy!

aftermath, we went to a really gawky place.
i'm totally mesmorised!
AWESOME!
hehes. don't tell you the place :P

i'm 'reading'!!!!!

call me picky or whatsoever, cause' i rejected 3 jobs in a day.
and i only applied for 2 job interview/application form only!
huh huh~
i want to exercise!!
okay, i think i should stop my whining and look forward to 22 dec! :)
excitement overwhelms me! :)

gloomy gloomy day

2009-12-16T13:33:00.003+08:00

-national geographic

my arms, my ribs and my back are aching.
my body is so stiff that i seriously hate myself for being lazy.
i want to exercise badly!
not just the jogging and climbing up the stairs kind of exercise
but rather swimming, basketball-ing and cycling...
i love i love :)
but you know, friends aren't so free as me.
time to ponder.
should i buy something for my parents and grandparents for this x'mas?
i'm really guilty for not showing them i still care for them.
obviously, they started to feel that i'm inhuman.
the lack of concern and love for everyone.
right, expectantly they haven't understand me well enough
cos' i'm so unpredictable.
that's the fact.
every now and then, they try to instill a set of traditional values into me.
in a nicer way to say, moral values.
i was pretty surprised when daddy told me NO alcohol is allowed for me!
ya, as if i'm craving for it... -sarcastic tone-
but you know, despite i hate drinking, i never expect this from daddy.
i feel like i'm back into this tiny and overprotected cage.
not in a bad way though.
but i want challenges.
i don't like everything to be decided for me.
and they never seem to realise it. :(
ohh, i didn't realise i really share my concrete feelings here.
time to loosen up again~